what's my age again?
This week I'm turning 27. To some of you reading this, this might be a shock seeing as I have an almost 2 year-old and all (I get this one surprisingly often). For my entire life, it seem I've flip flopped between being mature for my age or being immature or being told to "act my age" or that I had to grow up too young. What the fuck is an 8 year old supposed to act like? Or a 14 year old? Or, now, a 27 year old?
I feel like once you become old enough to file taxes, it's an expectation to be boring as hell. 21? Your hobbies better be yard work and MAYBE woodworking. 13? Isn't gaming for kids? 8? Act your age! Seriously, when I was 8 I got told on a couple of occasions to 'act my age'. 8! Because I was being immature. What the fuck are you supposed to be at that age besides eating glue and trading pokemon cards? Granted, I got told this a lot by girls at that time, who I feel nobody wants to be an adult more than 8 year old girls. These girls be like 7 years old telling a 6 year old he's being immature. ALL YALL ARE IMMATURE YOU JUST CAME OUT THE WOMB YESTERDAY, YOU'RE BARELY EVEN FULLY COOKED! Where the fuck am I going with this?
I'm at an age now where I can't quite tell what I'm even supposed to be at my age. Like yeah, I'm a family man with a wife and a daughter, but I also like playing games that were my favorite since I was a kid, or nostalgia watching my favorite youtube videos from like 2013, or listening to my favorite bands that have been my favorites since 2009. I will sometimes hear from people that I'm too old to be doing X hobby. What the fuck are my hobbies supposed to be then, Kathy? Alcoholism?
I often think of the song 'What's My Age, Again?' by Blink-182, which shares this sentiment. I'm not buying the fact that once you hit a certain age you all of a sudden need to have all the personality of a cardboard box. I'm mature enough, let me have my immature joys.
I'm gonna act like a dumbass when I'm with my best friend. I'm gonna love my nights eating pizza and playing video games. My sense of humor will probably not change. Just because I'm older doesn't mean I need to all of a sudden wedge a stick up my ass. The only thing maturity has done is give me disposable income to actually be able to get and do the things I want.
We've gaslit ourselves into trying to act a certain way to appease people that we don't even give a shit about. Forcing ourselves to do things we don't want or like things we don't enjoy out of fear of ostracism.
I'd rather relate to my daughter than relate to your grandpa. Kids seem to have more fun with life. And I guess that's really what it is.
You obviously need to get your shit together when you're an adult. Being 35 and living with your mom still is kinda lame. You have responsibilities, and sometimes you're responsible for people who depend on you. The point though isn't to all of a sudden kill your childlike wonder. I think more people are starting to realize how grey life can be when you get older, and now a lot of people are doing things that bring back those child-like qualities, like creativity, and finding more joy in simple things, and finding enjoyment in nonsense.
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as of writing this...
I hit the spliff too hard before walking into work. Oh well.